Two Roots Down, One More to Kill

I never thought I would feel that much pain because of my tooth. Good thing my dentist was sympathetic and sensitive enough to postpone killing the last root. Instead, she applied some medicine that would slowly kill the root, and then when it's not that sensitive, she could continue killing the root and clean the root canal. Ugh.

Someday, when I have my own kiddies, I'll terrorize them so they will take care their teeth (even the baby teeth), and going to the dentist every six months is a must!

Hope it'll end well for my last root this coming Wednesday.

Fingers crossed. XXX

My Favorite Things :)

It's almost 3am in the morning... Been browsing on flickr.. Found some pictures I love and worth saving. :)

As I browse, I saw some things I really, really want to have or experience, my favorite things. :)

1. Red Mary Jane shoes. :)

2. Knee-high stockings/ socks :)

3. DSLR. :)

4. Plaid skirt. :)

5. Nano or any iPod to store my music. :)

6. My own Golden Retriever. :)

7. Well, iPad. ;)

8. Seasons. ;)

9. Bike. :)

10. Rollerblades. :)

11. To become pregnant, and eventually a mom. :)

12. A garden wedding. :)

13. My own garden. :)

14. A house, a home which I will build with my mahal. :)

15. My own kitchen. :)

16. To experience life in another country. :)

17. Peach tulips. :)

18. My own arts and crafts room. :)

19. Bath tub and bubble baths. :)

20. A nice park where I can run or walk my dog. :)

21. Well, for health purposes, a treadmill. ;)

22. Guitar. :)

23. Farm. :)

24. A comfy car, wanna learn to drive. :)

Hmm..as of now these are the things that just came in mind. Will update this. ;)

While You're Far Away and Still Sleeping..

I am here,

waiting,

imagining

your yawn,

your lazy eyes,

your morning smile

that spreads star dusts

to this moonless, cloudy sky.

Is it that long already?

My body has been tired to count

those nights when it does not touch yours,

tired of anticipating when it trembles

on the slightest warmth of your breath,

even my hand's not used to be so open all the time,

it searches for a clasp, a squeeze.

Wake up, my love

embrace me through your words,

lull me away from this longing,

away from this moonless,

starless night.

Do You Know Me By Now?

Daydream delusion

Limousine Eyelash

Oh, baby with your pretty face

Drop a tear in my wineglass

Look at those big eyes

See what you mean to me

Sweet cakes and milkshakes

I am a delusion angel

I am a fantasy parade

I want you to know what I think

Don’t want you to guess anymore

You have no idea where I came from

We have no idea where we’re going

Launched in life

Like branches in the river

Flowing downstream

Caught in the current

I’ll carry you. You’ll carry me

That’s how it could be

Don’t you know me?

Don’t you know me by now?

Happiness :)

' can't write the the right words to show my feelings, my love. :)

All I know is...

I loved you,

I love you,

and I will love you.. :)

Your Voice..

I'm so happy to hear it again...

It is soothing...

So happy that we're gonna watch movie this Sunday...

Thanks mahal...

Love you still, love you always.

On This Long Weekend

I hope when I come back to my place, you're there, waiting for me...

surprising me...

Love it when you do that...

Hopin' I'll feel that rush again...

Love you always Ken, good night.

On Hugs and Kisses

Missing them..

Especially you, mahal.

Love you still, good night and sleep well.

Good night...

I hope you are sound asleep..

Even if its only you who are sleeping well..

I hope to see you in my dreams mahal...

Dream of me, too, will you...?

Love...

Do you still love me?

Because of the past days' distance from each other...

I fear that you'll get used to it...

God knows how I really wish you're in my arms again... and I, to yours.

I miss you so much, Ken...

I just can't think and admit that you can deal with this...

that somehow, you manage to be alright... I really don't...

Because even if I don't admit to you now... I am in pain... such an agonizing pain I never experienced in my life...

My heart is yours...

And you took it with you...

I hope that you'll take it back...along with you.

Love you still, love you always Ken.

On Missing You...

"I wanted someone to love who would stay: stay and be there, always."

"But you make me happy. It's living up to being happy that's the difficult part."

"Do you ever miss him?
Every day. Every minute.
Every minute, she says.
Yes, it's that way, isn't it?"

"There is only one page left to write on. I will fill it with words of only one syllable.

I love.

I have loved.

I will love."

"It’s dark now and I am very tired. I love you, always. Time is nothing."

---

I miss you so much Ken...like a child misses her most beloved doll.

Alone on a Friday Night...

Just came from work..OT galore...so tired...

Hope my team will be able to release tonight...

No one's home..

I'm so alone..

I miss you so mahal..so much... so much...

Longing to be with you...

Longing to touch your handsome and gentle face...

Your smile that lightens up the lines and darkness caused by the past events...

Hope you'll come here...

Save me from this misery..

Love you Ken, always.

A Poem For Me and Only Me

This poem was written for me by Tita Jetty.

It was to be used in my batch's year book (and at last we'll be able to get it tomorrow).

No one has written me poems except Tita Jetty.

Thanks Tita, you captured it all.

---

Nagsimula ang lahat sa isang malinis na puting papel.

Di naglao'y dumampi ang labi ng brotsa sa kanyang katawan.
Nagtalik ang mga kulay at anino.

Pula. Kapusukan sa karunungan.

Kahel. Tamis ng pagkakaibigan.

Dilaw. Sinag ng kayamanan.

Luntian. Buhay at kasaganaan.

Asul. Dalisay na karangalan.

Indigo. Yumi at kagandahan.

Lila. Kasawiang pundasyon ng katatagan.

Naglaro ang brotsa sa kabuuan ng papel.
Pinaliguan ng kahulugan ang dati'y kulay ng kakulangan.
Hanggang sa pumailanlang ang isang pigura na singningning ng bahaghari ang taglay na katangian.
At sa paghihiwalay ng brotsang naging sagot sa lahat niyang katanungan at ng papel ng kaniyang mga karanasan, isang bagong imahe ang matutunghayan:

malakas,

marikit

at maalam.

For My Favorite Mistake

This poem came from a friend. It was created for him by his special half.

Simple yet honestly written.

---

Maybe in life, people come to us in a flash.

Unexpectedly, sometimes quietly, sometimes with such fanfare.

But they do come. You'll never know when they'll leave, or how.

But when you look into their eyes, you don't doubt they were meant to
come.

Meant to be part of your life, if only briefly.

Or when their hands hold yours, you somehow know its magic.

And you wonder why they could be so precise about you, and you to them.

Or how easily you could both acknowledge your unmistakable chemistry.

Or how sometimes, you both need no words... just..

---

Hope you got the message mahal.

Love you still.

On Healing

Kahapon naman nakayanan kong hindi ka tawagan, o i-text man lang.

Ni fb hindi ko pa rin sinilip.

Ni hindi nga ako umiyak.

Mejo puyat pero nakatulog naman ng maayos.

Pero nung nag-text ka kaninang umaga, "u safe home?"...

tatlong salita lang..

Hindi mo lang alam kung sino pang mga tao ang kelangan kong i-text para mabaling sa iba yung pagnanais kong sagutin ka.

Nung hapon, hindi ko rin napagilan. Ayoko rin namang nag-aalala ka sa akin.

Natatawa nga ako sa'yo, tulad ng sabi mo kelangan mo ng panahon pero ikaw ang hindi mapakali. Na hindi mo rin mapigilan ang sarili mo na alamin kung ano ang nangyayari sa akin.

Binibigyan lang naman kita ng panahon.. panahong makapagnilay-nilay sa mga nagdaang araw...

Binibigyan ko rin ang sarili ko ng panahong maghilom...

Alam kong nasaktan ka.

Nasaktan din ako mahal...

Iniisip ko na lang yung ni-text sakin ni Tyrone kani-kanina lang:

"No one will make a lock without a key...

Similarly, God won't make problems without solutions..."

Sana hindi natin madaliin ang paghilom natin..

hopefully, in God's time.

Love you still, mahal.

...Have faith in us.

Muli...

"Walang katulad mo, walang kasing lakas ng tama mo.
Salamat sa iyo aking guro't gabay.
Dahil sa iyo, ang buhay ko'y nagkasaysay.
Sa malas kong ito, minsan sinuwerte din ako.
Nang makilala ang taong tulad mo.

Pasensya na, sana maintindihan mo.
Gusto lang kitang makasamang... muli."

- Bamboo

On Starting Anew..On Starting To Write Again

I haven't written for a while.

Not in the old-fashion way of journaling, not even online.

I missed writing.

Writing gives me the freedom to speak my mind.

I'm not a good conversationalist. Often times, I just keep my thinking to myself,

afraid to say it aloud. I'm used to thinking while walking. Think-walk-think-walk.

That's why I usually trip on things, thus, the clumsy me. :)

I write more fluently in Filipino--no need to stop thinking about grammar and diction,

just the usual colloquial way..just lines of words flowing freely.

Oh well, just trying to blog in English, no hurt in trying eh?:)