Friday, May 27, 2011

A Hundred Memories: Memory 5


Remember this? :) Kasama ko pa sa dorm si Dekay niyan. Hindi pa tayo niyan. Natatawa nga ako sa suot mo kasi ang pormal mo eh, tapos ako, as usual casual and hindi mo masyadong sinasabi noon sa akin, pero revealing nga yung mga suot ko. Sa'yo ko nga natutunan na mejo i-tame down yun. Remember our first date? Na sabi ko bakit sakin nakatingin lahat sa simbahan ng EDSA Shrine, kasi mejo normal lang sakin talaga magsuot ng ganun. Hindi ka sumagot noon. Tapos tinanong ko ulit sa'yo nung naging tayo na, and sinabi mo na paano ba naman, kita lahat lahat.:) Kumain tayo sa napakasosyal na Kenny Roger's sa Galleria. Habang kumakain ka, naghihimay ako ng manok ko. Tapos pinakain ko sa'yo lahat! :) Nung pauwi tayo, hinatid mo ako, kasi ganun ka talagang tao na nalaman ko naman nung naging tayo na. At dahil hindi ako marunong magpigil sa mga nararamdaman ko, na alam kong gusto na kita nun, hinalikan kita ng paulit-ulit sa pisngi. Sabi mo nga akala mo nasisiraan ako ng bait, parang ewan ako. Pero hindi mo naman ako pinigilan. :)
Alam mo yung pinakanaaalala ko sa date na yun?

The moment you held my hand, and how my hand perfectly fitted yours. :)

And for the record, sinadya kong isuot ang green na damit na yun, just to impress you. But you're not that kind of guy, I know that now.

Thursday, May 26, 2011

...

im holding on to something precious..
but you are torn apart.. when you are by my side..
torn between you and me..
im also torn apart..
your happiness is my happiness..but at the same time it's also my pain..
my happiness is your happiness..but at the same time it's also your pain..

how can i give your happiness when it will be my pain?
and how can you give mine if it will your pain?

i know this is not easy..it never was..and it will never be..
that's why im giving myself, my whole heart, to you..
can you still trust your heart to me..?
can you still trust yourself to me..?

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Falling In Love With You

I love you because you don't always tell me I'm pretty; you tell me if I really am.
I love you because when I ask you, "Fat na ba ako?", you'll answer with a mischievous smile, and a sarcastic "Hindi!"
I love you because you sleep like oil in a cold weather; and I have to call you several times just so you can get up on time for work.
I love you because you often give me useful gifts and not so much flowers.
I love you because you are stubborn at times.
I love you because you are patient with me if I am stubborn and in tampururot mode and selosa mode.
I love you because you love Kenshin and Kaoru very much.
I love you when you are sick and yucky and smelly.
I love you because you choose to stay even after my darkest moments.
I love you still when you feel like giving up on us.
I love you because when the time comes that I'll be the one who feels like giving up, I will stay.
And I love you because we're real. Because I am ready to spend my life with you, through thick and thin.
I love you because I know no other way than this.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Losing Keys

Sometimes, I picture ourselves, dancing in a quiet room, just us... My hands are curled up at your nape, your arms embracing my hips tightly yet gently towards your body.. My head is resting peacefully on your shoulder while your head is resting on mine.. Our feet who know nothing about the soft music playing on the background, just follow their own pace, drifting very slowly along with our hearts to a place only the two us know, only the two us can and will ever experience.
 ~ o ~

Don't worry
Everybody in the room notices you
Sit back and relax
The night is early
We are about to overdo it
So come and tell me something that you've already told me
Cause everybody's heard our lovely stories
I'm hoping some of them are true

I've been losing lots of keys lately,
I don't know what that means
But maybe I've been better off with things that can't be locked at all
I've been feeling kind of sea sick lately,
See you reaching to me come and save me
You or me, I would much rather take the fall

The world has it's ways
To quiet us down
The world has it's ways
To quiet us down comes the rain
Down comes our spirits again
But down comes the strength
To lift us up and then...

Been going up when now
For to long
Forget how
To let go
Seems to hard
To late now
To turn around
The world has it's ways
To quiet us down
The world has it's ways
To quiet us down comes rain
Down goes our spirits again
Down comes the strength
To lift us up and then...


Tuesday, May 17, 2011

A Hundred Memories: Memory 4



This was taken recently, January 19th 2011, my last birthday with you. You surprised me with a dozen red roses while you were pretending to prepare our dinner.

You seldom give me something pretty.
You seldom give me flowers.

But when you do, you don't even need to ask me how I feel, just look at my face.

Monday, May 16, 2011

Make You Feel My Love


When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
No there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
Though winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet

I could make you happy make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love

To make you feel my love...

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Letter for You

Sometimes I just want to be be asleep, coz when I am, I get to be with you.
I can just talk to you, face to face, and it seems we can understand each other.
And like we used to, this kind of problem we are experiencing right now, it just vanishes.
Nothing matters.

How many days since I last saw you?
43 days.
And do you miss me?

I miss you every damn day.

I will give you space, if that's what you really need.
I am just here, even if you're not sure if your path will lead to mine.
Coz, I am sure that you're the one I want and love to be with.
I am just here, mahal.
Please do remember that..

Are you looking at the right places? Is the one lacking not in our relationship, but actually inside you, in yourself?

And if you decided to come back to me, I will embrace and welcome you with open arms,
like I always used to.

My two cents:
Love in a relationship is never tested when the sky is clear: only, and always,
during the storm. Every relationship needs a lot of effort to work out.

Was I worth it?
Am I still worth it?

And if not, I need to walk away from your life, too.
Completely.
Even if right now, I can't imagine how.
But I need to. I have to.

I will just bring all the memories of the times I am with you, with your family and friends.
All the good times and bad times. Especially the bad times, coz right after those times, you were still with me.

And if you're wondering..
Are you worth it?

Yes.
Absolutely.

Thursday, May 12, 2011

A Hundred Memories: Memory 3

These were taken on All Souls Day 2009, November 1 at Himlayan Tandang Sora. This was my first time to celebrate UNDAS season with your family, since often times you have clients calls during holidays. I was glad because you're around, and we were able to go to the cemetery with your family. :)

Walking towards the tiny hill


Candid shot, but still handsome. :)


Candles for the beloved ones :)


Me with my short hair :)



Meticulously painting the "puntod"


Hmm..see how the painting changes from top to bottom. Paganda ba ng paganda? :p


Biggie Devil dog. I miss Kenshin and Kaoru, kahit na super gulo nila. :(

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

A Hundred Memories: Memory 2





These were taken on June 20, 2009 at Kuya Brian and Ate Angelica's wedding. Our first wedding together, and our first wedding on Manila Cathedral church (since we also attended another wedding at the same church). :)

I remembered we were having problems back then.. but we're still happy at the wedding.
Sabi mo nga ang sexy ko sa damit ko na hiniram pa kay Chloe, kasama yung sapatos.
Sexy kahit wala masyadong nakalabas na skin. And I also remembered the song while Ate Angelica was walking down the aisle. It was sang by Lea Salonga, composed for her wedding.

Two Words

In a while, in a word,
Every moment now returns.
For a while, seen or heard,
How each memory softly burns.
Facing you who brings me new tomorrows,
I thank God for yesterdays,
How they led me to this very hour,
How they led me to this place...

Every touch, every smile,
You have given me in care.
Keep in heart, always I'll,
Now be treasuring everywhere.
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I hold this moment true?
No trace of sadness,
Always with gladness...
'I DO...'

Now a song that speaks of now and ever,
Beckons me to someone new,
Unexpected, unexplored, unseen,
Filled with promise coming through.
In a while, in a word,
You and I forever change,
Love so clear, never blurred,
Has me feeling wondrous, strange,
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I face each moment true?
No trace of sadness, always with gladness,
'I DO...'

Never with sadness...
Always with gladness...
'I...DO....'


I do.
I still do, mahal.

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

A Hundred Memories: Memory 1

As we begin this space thing, and I don't how the term for our relationship now, I just want to reminisce some of the memories I have had with you..






This was the time when we officially became "we". December 23, 2007. Kasama ko pang nagdodorm si Dekay nito sa Katipunan. Nagkita tayo nito sa SM Fairview, galing ka sa burol ni T'song Rolly, at kasama mo si Dandan (unang beses ko siyang nakita). Kasama ko naman si Dekay, si Mike (pati ng family niya) dahil namimili ng Christmas gifts. Umuwi tayo ng dorm pagkatapos kong mamili ng mga regalo para sa bahay. Tapos yun.

Nung nahiga tayo sa "guest room" (meaning yung kutson sa lapag na inayos namin ni Dekay), at ako naman ay madaling nakatulog dahil antukin as usual, akala mo siguro tulog na ako dahil nakapikit na ako.. pero narinig ko ang sinabi mo kahit pabulong, at unang beses kong narinig galing sa'yo.

I love you.

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Kamusta Ka Mahal Ko?


Matagal na rin akong hindi nakakapagsulat, simula pa ata nung una akong dumating sa bansang ito. Mas madali rin kasing mag-"upload" ng mga larawan sa FB at hayaang ikwento ng mga larawang ito yung nakikita at nararamdaman ko habang sinusubukan kong ikahon sa aking alaala ang mga iyon. Alam ko namang hindi kayang ikahon ang mga sandaling iyon, kahit gaano man ka-"hi-tech" ang mga kagamitan sa pagkuha ng larawan. Sa ngayon nga, tanging ang iPhone ko ang kadalasang ginagamit ko dahil nga kahit saan pwede kong dalhin, habang naglalakad ako o nagbibisikleta, maaari na akong kumuha ng larawan kapag may nakita akong kaaya-aya sa paningin.

Sa bawat sandaling kinukuhanan ko ang mga larawang iyon, sa bawat pagpindot ng aking daliri upang ikahon ang mga alaalang iyon, sana nandoon ka, mahal.

Kasama sa mga pakikipagsapalaran ko, sa mga "pakikipag-usap" ko sa banyagang dila na tila isang pipi na gustong iparating sa isang normal na tao ang anumang nais iparating.

Kasama sa mga pagkaligaw dahil hindi mabasa ang pupuntahan na tila isang batang paslit na natututo pang magbasa.

Kasama sa karagatan ng mga taong may iisang mukha at salita, na sa gitna ng pag-alon sa karagatan iyon,

makikita ko ang maamo mong mukha at ngiti sa aking batang kilos at pag-iisip,

ang kamay mong nagbibigay ng kasiguruhan habang hawak ang aking pawisang kamay sa kaba,

ang balikat mong mahihiligan ko matapos ang isang buong araw na pagkapagal sa pagtratrabaho,

maririnig ang boses mong tila isang musikang hehele sa akin upang mahimbing na pagtulog,

ang dantay ng katawan at yakap mong nagsasabi ng mga salitang hindi na kailangan mamutawi sa bibig.


Kamusta ka na mahal ko?